My Heart Condition

Physically I do believe that my heart is in good condition. It was normal the last time it was examined with the doctor. As always, I feel sad because my heart is not beeting because of someone else. I wanted to find the right person for me. I love people but it is so hard for me to give my heart, myself to someone else. I know that I have a high standards whenever I look to people. These are the people I was hoping to be my partner in life. I am a sensitive man, I cannot give myself fully because I am so afraid. I am afraid to be left behind.

My heart condition is still is in the process of moving on. I am moving on for the past 6 months since my breakups. I believe I did the right decision for I almost put myself in a position wherein I am like a hopeless lover.

I am healing my heart, trying to give it to someone else but it is so hard. Again, I am afraid to be left alone. This time I want to be certain but this other person inside me is telling me that loving is always a risk. If I always stop my heart to beat to someone else and let my mind to lead my life I know that I will never have an experience to be happy. I know that with love it will cause a great pain and suffering but I was thinking that it would be better to be broken hearted, to fail in love than not to experience it at all. I want to experience to be in love again and let this love grow .

I believe that I was born to love other people because God commanded us to love one another. Love, it is very hard to expalin what love means. I know that it is more that what we can say about it. Its meaning is more that we could imagine.

Home Building Project

I join our company's Home Building project this April. I am actually excited for at least for 5 days I will be out in the office. This is an opportunity for me to reach out other people and at the same time to go to places and have a vacation. Since I am new to this company I have no leaves yet so I take this opportunity to go out.

I wanna share the Program of the things we expect during the program.

Program: Community development and engagement through partnership with Gawad Kalinga (GK) in Philippines, including

–House building
–Visiting local families
–Interacting with children
–Farming
–Landscaping
–Planting

I had an experience interacting with street children. Talking to them, sharing stories, playing games, and food feeding program.

I want to experience the kind of emotion wherein your heart is full of joy and you cannot explain it. It is a kind of fulfillment because because you were able to make other people happy, they appreciate your doings and seing a big smile of appreciation coming from them.

I know and I believe that this experience will benefits both parties but I know that I will be benifited the most. This is the kind of things I always wanted to do. I love to help, to bless and make people happy.

Share Your Blessing

Early this year- January 2007 I joined my College schoolmates for a charity for little kids living somewhere in barangay Holly Spirit in Commonwealth Quezon City. That is the Haligi ng Bata Foundation. It was an unexpected invitation from my college friend before the 2006 ends. It was my plan that year actually to share my blessing however I could not find a friend/s to join me. God is so great for He find ways to fulfill my dream. The picture in this post are the children singing their "Hawak Kamay" version dedicated for us. It is their way of giving thanks for this Post Christmas party we organize for them. I learned from this experience the gift of giving. People should learn how to bring back the blessing to others for it will bring joy to them. No one can explain the happiness when someone shows a big smile because of what you've done. When you see people happy, that is the feeling of fulfillment, a felling you cannot forget for your whole life. I learned to appreciate little things, through appreciation we learned to become contented and understand those little things about life. This is another chapter I could add in my book and hope people will be inspire to do the same for this is an extraordinary things in life that you keep on coming back once you experienced it.