I do not want to be Alone

I am alone in my room
Thinking of what things I should do
Thinking what else should I do with my life
Suddenly I feel so down
For I am alone in my life

I am planning to have a good life
I plan to reach the stars
But suddenly all things fades
For I am alone in my life

What value this life I have?
If I am alone in my life
What value the success I have?
If I am alone in my life

I realize that I need someone to share
To share my life and my success
Who will be right beside me
Who will never leave me till the end

I pray that the person will come
For I do not want to be alone
To be alone in this room
But to be with someone who will never let me go

I will persist until I succeed

I reject the fact that you don't like me anymore
Or is that something only in my mind?
I know that I never been a special person from start
Am I pushing myself to you

I never ask if you like me as well
I just asked if I can be a close person to you
I thought it is a good start
But since then I feel that you do not want to see nor hear anything from me

I tried my best to get in touch with you
I always pray that I can receive a single reply from you
I told myself that you are just busy
But days go by and it seems that you totally rejected me

I do not want to give up
I always believe that one day I can hear response from you
I do not want to give up
I will persist until I succeed

Life Lessons

While searching in google I accidentally opened my old blog and remembered the times when I was enjoying composing a poem. So being "makata" runs in my blood. Hehehehehehe. I want to share this short poem I composed and somehow I could answer this poem now. I was confused before and don't know where to go, what to do with my life. But God opened my eyes and showed me the reason why I am living. I have answer now to many questions I asked to myself. Why I am living? What is my purpose in life? What should I do with my life? Simple question with simple answer. I AM, or WE are living in this world to LOVE PEOPLE and to LOVE GOD. Simple answer but have a very DEEP meaning. Thank you All for allowing me to share my life with you. Hope I can bless you to my own little ways.

The two poems below I composed last May 15, 2006

===The Gleam in the Dark===

As I was walking in this world

I saw a gleam of light

I tried to reach it

I walk fast

I run

I tried to touch even a glimpse of light

But it is so fast

Its gone and I don't know where to find it

===Confused===

I don't know where I am

I am like a blind with eyes wide open

I don't know where I will go

I am like stupid who don't know the direction

I don't know who I am

I am like have sick with amnesia

Sometimes I let the rain warmth me

I let the sun dry me

I let the wind dry my tearsI

am confused...And I don't know why!!!